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Vol 18 Mar 2002

In Truth, Simplicity and Love

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Not Science Fiction

Workshops: Quantum Dynamics

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............................................................................................................................................................ WELCOME ! Kelley here, Blessings. We are pleased to announce that we have exceeded 312 subscribers!! We have no idea what this means...but it's cool! And we still have ...no banners..no outside interference, just a good read. We invite you to forward this and all of our newsletters on to others with similar interests. Your participation even just with this newsletter gives us support. We honor you! Thanks! And foremost, let us know what you think about this newsletter. Watch our website: anextstep.org is acquiring an archive where you'll be able to read back issues. (PS - your email address will never be given out, sold or otherwise used for anything except here at anextstep.org).However..please be informed that our new server has found what might be a breach in our subscriber list. This is being moved to a new system as you are reading this. Anyone claiming they got your address from us, please send us their address and delete their letter, Thank you. Special thanks to Debi Estrada for her tithes to A NEXT STEP...CENTER FOR EMOTIONAL HEALING. May the Universe bless you and return 1000 fold the energy you gifted us. .

BURSTING THE BODY LIGHT-VIOLET FLAME OF FORGIVENESS WORLD PEACE BREATH MEDITATION Sunday, March 3, 2002 was a beautiful day here in Las Cruces, New Mexico to celebrate our monthly intention that peace prevail on the face of this precious Earth. We commanded as our intention that "All world leaders awaken to their love and compassion". I believe in miracles and I believe it is never too late for even the most self-serving, selfish people to wake up to their humanity and divinity. To learn the first part of this two part breath meditation, please go to our website at anextstep.org. Click on free offer and download the first part for free. Then the first Sunday of each month you can join us with this sacred gift to give and receive support for yourself, humanity and Mother Earth. Our next World Peace Breath Meditation with BBL-VFF is Sunday, April 7, 2002 at 3 p.m. rocky mt. standard time. We meet the first Sunday of every month. We share and do the breath meditation with an intention for ourselves, humanity and Mother Earth between 4 and 4:30 p.m. Please do join us. It is an exquisitely simple way to give and receive support...and you are worthy of giving and receiving support

NOT SCIENCE FICTION Until recently I had nothing more than a childlike interest in UFOs and extra-terrestials...childlike because of Steven Spielberg's great presentation in the film E.T. and also because my life had been too filled with all the other important "adult responsibilites"--stuff I tended to use to run away through activity. As a child, I remember writing a theme in 6th grade on a friendly invasion by extra-terrestials....but was it not part of our consciences in 1960? Mrs. Kupps, said I had quite an imagination. I guess others shared that thought since My Favorite Martian t.v. show had a great following. My good friend Leonard Orr says that the history of man is stranger than science fiction. What I am going to share with you now may sound like science fiction, but it is not. I am choosing to share it with you to support you in expanding your windows, to alert you to possibilities...real possibilities for you to know and help you be at choice...that there is always something you can do about most things you create. And also because anything we are not conscious of, we are not awake to....and there is more and more that we very much need to be not only awake to, but doing something about. I never gave much thought to E.T.s or M.I.B.s (Men in Black) until January 12, 2002. I awoke very early--probably about 4 am or so. I was lying on my back and turned my head to my right to find a man standing there with a "gadget" in his right hand that looked like a tv remote. I knew instantly that it was a body translator ("Beam me up Scottie"!). Neither he nor I were startled or frightened. Certainly, he had been caught. He then immediately faded into nothingness. I had been having feelings for a long while that I had been being "messed with". There were a number of events that I could not resolve within myself--that I did not have answers or even clues to. I had dismissed much of these incidents since I had no way to account for them and being an empath, I do experience unusual things sometimes. My job in working with clients is to locate memories to resolve conflict--to learn about the real self and empower the individual. Working with the memory is imperative and yet, I found myself wanting nothing to do with this person, with what he represented, not wanting to know anything about my connection to him or any such involvement. I guess a part of me already understood what his presence in my bedrooom with that gadget in his hand was all about. My reticence felt highly unlike me. I, curiously enough did not even question my resistance. I mean, I have been doing innerwork with every kind of technology you can imagine since the mid '70's with open arms. I have been thru more membranes of fear than most therapists and shamans. Yet here I was saying I did not want to know something about me that was important. When I recognized this with a little help from my friends (thanks Daniel and Kel), I "woke up"and realized that I must find out or forever be in bondage. The man I saw in my room was dressed in dark clothing--not black, but bluish, burgandyish. And the clothing was thick,warm clothing. It felt like he was from a cold environment. When I told Kel about it, he questioned Universal Intelligence. Kel got that the man is from Military Intelligence--Men in Black. MIB's as they are known have been abducting people and doing research on them for a long time. These abductions have been thought to be solely perpetrated by ET's. While the ET's have been doing research also, the MIB's have had a lot of involvement as well. We also learned that the particular facility I had been taken to (where this guy originated from, was either in Idaho or Montana). The following nite--probably around 2 or 3 am, I had another visit. I awoke to be aware of a tall man with what looked like a doctor's white coat over the darkish thick clothes. He was accompanied by a large gathering of folks that flanked him on both sides. I was seeing them at their place of origin rather than in my bedroom. They were in a huge room. It looked like a factory or airplane hanger rather than a hospital. It was well lit. They appeared directly in front of me. I, at this point , was still in what I thought was my resistance mode and was not ready to address them yet. I wanted more time to get stronger. I told them I did not wish to talk to them. The man in the white coat appeared to be the spokeman. He said "But we have something that belongs to you." I asked "What?". He said "We have your heart". I asked how long they would have it. He said they would keep it for another couple of months. I must have been brainwashed or something, because I had no real reaction to these people just having their way with me. I was acting like a complacent robot. "Oh, it's ok with me...take whatever you want." I was in as much flat affect or mind control as they were at that time. Kel said, and I tend to agree, they do not have my heart. Maybe they have a hologram of my heart. Maybe they were "bsing" me. I mean what are these folks about and what do they really want? Can we trust conversation with folks who abduct us and have been doing research on us unbeknownst to us for years...maybe even decades? The very first time I gave credence to personal abduction was three years ago (November of 1999) when Kel and I flew to N.Y. to work with a couple of healers, looking for answers to healing the deplorable physical condition of my body. It was the first year of senility. I had manifested four terminal dis-eases and was in denial of my situation. What I now know is that I probably had a lot of help from the MIB's. Almost as soon as she saw me, this healer said to me "You have been electrocuted". I told her "Not to my memory". "Well then, someone you worked with was electrocuted", she said. As she worked with my energy field a day later, she recanted and said "No, you definitely were electrocuted ....and you were electrocuted after an abduction ". She said they electrocuted me to wipe out all memory of the experience. It did not shock me or seem outrageous. I just wanted answers and healing. I immediately began processing around electrocution with an excellent tool called Quantum Dynamics. For the first time in a year I could feel energy in my arms and legs. I was so thankful. Yet, I was still incredibly shutdown...and it was a beginning. Going back in time, Kel and I don't remember when this next event took place--whether it was in 1998, before I became so ill or summer of 1999. One a.m. we awoke to find blood spots (small spatter like spots) on our favorite yellow sheets. The spots were on both sides of the bed and on our king size pillows which rest above our heads against the wall. We did not know what to make of it then. In asking recently (1-22-02), we discovered it was my blood. There were no discernible punctures or marks on my body. Kel has begun researching the different websites of folks whose stories are helping us understand and unravel this crazy puzzle. One gentleman from Australia had been involved for a while with the greys (a specific group of ET's). Kel and I had been told that the greys were taken off planet in 1992. That is not correct. They are still here. This Aussie met a couple in Australia who had good luck in freeing themselves from falling victim to abduction. He asked them what they did to be left alone. The couple told him that the greys are capable of getting folks from Earth to do what they want by placing a grey soul in us. They need bodies to do their bidding. Most people have no clue they hold such an energy. The grey soul lives successfully in people because we have gotten so disconnected from God...we have forgotten that our essence is love. The grey soul cannot tolerate the energy of love. So, we can literally love it out of our bodies. The Aussie thought he had nothing to lose, so he tried the technique. He laid down on his bed and kept sending love to the grey soul. He fell asleep in the process and "awoke" to find himself on the edge of the bed next to his sleeping body. He saw a golden disc slip out of his back (lumbar area) and leave his body. So Kel and I asked if we had a grey soul within us. We got a "yes" and got how to love it from our bodies. As I breathed with my love intention, I located the grey soul--left pelvis. As I sent it love, it folded on itself. As I placed my hands on it to send it Reiki--pure Universal Life Force Energy which is Love, it turned gold and flat like a wafer. It then quickly sailed up within my body and out my mouth. It disappeared into nothingness. We asked if that was the end of it. We were told that I, Toni, would need to process 8th Chakra for a while. Source then gave me what to address. I will do this tiI I become more stabilized in my health. Another person's website revealed more info. This woman had been abducted by MIB's and aliens a number of times. She knows that they operated on one of her knees. They did such a lousy job of it that her knee is perpetually swollen and it "crunches" a lot when she moves it. This has happened to my right knee. It grinds and pops, is inflamed, swollen and very painful. I thought it was because I fell on it two months after I broke my left hip last year, but the knee did not start doing this until about three months after I fell. Last November, 2001 I awoke to find a very thick swollen bruise about 1 and 1/2 to two inches across the top of the leg above the right knee. It looked like it got clobbered good and yet I had no recollection of how I got it. It is now the beginning of March 2002 and I still have evidence of the bruise there. Kel has since found out that this is where they secured my leg to do whatever it was that they did to my knee. This woman said that one of her meetings with the aliens was not an abduction, but a plea from a female ET for help. The ET woman took her to a place where the woman saw two clones of herself. The ET said that our government begged the ET's to teach them how to clone...that it would only be used for good. The alien woman says they have been betrayed by the government of the U.S. and that they need our help to stop this from continuing. When the woman who had been abducted, went public with this story, she had a black unmarked heliocopter almost land on the trailer next to her home. The windows were dark tinted. She could not see their faces, but they could see her. The heliocopter hovered there for quite awhile. They were hoping the harrassment would stop her. If she shuts up, if we all shut up, if we don't question, if we don't seek answers, then we are doomed to enslavement, manipulation, victim consciousness...a not too fun experience and all in our body-mind ...encarceration within ourselves! Maybe that is what this reflection is all about...how encarcerated we are. Maybe we need these experiences to wake us up and do something about it to take charge of our lives. When I had Kelley regress me thru hypnosis to retrieve memories around the abductions, I must say, I had a good deal of terror come up. I was in contact with all my inner characters; they were all ready to do this. One of my females (an adolescent) started freaking out. I had two grandparent types calm her down. As we began the countdown, I felt like I was a in a bucket in a well, but it also felt like an elevator shaft. The walls felt like concrete. When we reached the bottom, I felt it with my feet. It felt gritty like a basement. I saw only blackness, so I had Kel take me down further. He took me deeper and still I saw only blackness. I felt stuck and stopped by my fear and terror. So I used Q.D. to calm myself down. Then Kelley told me to turn to my right...that I would find a doorway there. So I turned and sure enough, down the dark hallway there was a door that opened to a huge room filled with people at different "stations". There were personnel bustling about and a ton of medical looking machinery everywhere. There were no walls or room dividers. There were clusters of 2-3 people/ETs at these stations. Each station also had bodies (people) being worked on on gurneys. I found my body as soon as I entered the room. I "felt" where I was, rather than saw myself. I was aware that I went into so much fright that I fragmented and a portion of myself left the room ascending to the heights of the room observing from there. My body was unclothed and looked like it had been dipped or swabbed in some kind of yellowish-reddish fluid. I began crying when I saw this, as I responded with attachment and empathy to my body and the others on the gurneys. Kelley quickly had me pull out of this emotional state since that served no one and diminished valuable energy. He had me give myself and the whole experience the Light Bridge Attunement which is a sacred blessing that Babaji gave us to sanctify all of our creations and bridge the present moment of now to Origin. This blessing calmed me and put me in charge. I was hooked up to a number of machines and devices that were providing readings of some sort. I was being attended to by 3 folks. The one sitting on my right in a white coat was human. There were two on my left; one close to my head, the other by my left knee. These latter two were extra-terrestials, they felt like greys. While all of the abductees were rendered unconscious, I felt many of them experiencing similar things. They were confused, frightened and looking for comfort. It is almost like they found themselves in a dreamscape. They did not know how afraid they should be or even how they should feel. It is like they found themselves in an odd shaped box with no doors or windows. It is as if they were looking for a way to get out. Kel asked me if all the abductees were from the United States. The answer was immediate--many, if not most were from all over the world: Germany , Russia , Sweden, Australia, Africa were some of the countries represented. I don't know if they were abducted from their own countries or if they had been visiting or already residing in the U.S. I did not think to ask them just then. I found it curious that there were no Middle Easterners. Kel was able to be present with me thru my body/eyes. He steered me to go thru the double doors that were opposite the door I entered thru. The double doors appeared to be the front of the room. They opened to a large, long, wide, very brightly lit (with light bulbs) corridor. Kel instructed me to turn right, to go to the first door on my right...that that was the record room. Well sure enough, that's what it was. Even though the abductions have been going on for a while--decades or longer--the project there is operating with old fashioned record keeping. There were huge numbers of filing cabinets--row after row. There were also tables all over with workers all around--seemingly poring over the files. I thought "How in the world am I going to find my file without being detected?" Kel told me to relax because I was invisible. Once I relaxed, I was easily able to intuit where my file was. It was a thick file--104 pages worth! My first ET abduction was in 1961 and my first MIB abduction was in 1984. I felt overwhelmed with the size of the document, so I moved myself into the part of the One Mind that has a photographic memory. I downloaded the info into my mind to deal with later. About a week later, I ventured by myself back to this place. I had a very difficult time staying conscious, as I was under the influence of some kind of drug in this memory. I was in a different room in a section of the building that was honeycombed with lots of little interrogation rooms. The walls were dark from floor to ceiling--like old, dirty, dark, fake wood paneling, as were the very narrow hallways. Each room was small and contained a cot and a couple of chairs. It was dimly lit and totally inhospitable. I was freezing and almost in low key hysteria and inebriation from whatever it was that they gave me. The man in charge seemed in a hurry, as if time was of the essence. He told two attendents to put my clothes on and put blankets on me. I still continued to feel like I was freezing. My teeth were chattering. They were not having any success bringing me to the level of consciousness necessary to have this "interview", despite a variety of different "drugs" to be able to do so. Finally, the lead person lost patience with me (the only sign of any affect from any of the folks there in my visits) and allowed me to forego the interview this time. Undoubtedly, my body temperature was a manifestation of my fright and terror from the ordeal, and the fright and terror I was picking up from all the other abductees. One of my friends says my account is similar to about twelve other people he knows who have been abducted. Another friend said the ETs learned to not mess with him. He said he gave them "hell" and suggested I do the same. He said the ETs and MIBs were so much less than me, in terms of personal power, that I should not be afraid of them. He also felt that anything I did to them would not even create "bad"karma for me, because what they have been doing to people is reprehensible. So I went with two very efficient warriors from the Hindi pantheon, Kali and Virabhadra as support to the hanger. I entered the back door and commanded that everyone present listen to me. I issued my own fiat: that I would no longer tolerate abduction or participation in their research. I demanded that I be heard and recognized as noncompliant and noncooperative from this point forward; that any agreement I might have formerly had with them was no longer. They do not like this posture. They prefer nonresistance and unconsciousness. The workers stopped their work to listen to me and as in almost every other situation, they showed no affect...no response. I left there feeling that what I did was good, but I had not felt like I voiced it with the show of strength I had wanted. A friend who is an honest to goodness warrior requested that I take him there to this facility to see if there was any more that could be done. He was itching to right a wrong. How do we carry people with us to experience memories like these? We do it thru the use of an exquisite tool called Conscious Lucid Dreaming. With Conscious Lucid Dreaming we are able to alter time and space; we are able to access ourselves inter- and intra-dimensionally and thus support and change our realities, and we can do it individually or as a group. As in any endeavor, the group energy allows for the utilization of a higher level of energy for your purpose and intention. We each did individual conscious dreams around the facility before we did our reconnaissance mission together. We found the location of the site on the map. Above ground is a completely innocent looking farmland. The facility is underground. It consists of 12 stories; the first two floors are for receiving, the next two are for interrogation, the next several are for research and experimentation, the last couple are housing for staff. We found my file emptied with an envelope in its place that read either "JATROPA ' or "JATROPHA ". When we went to the 6th floor to look for my "parts" under research, all I could get was that it was under "T-L'. This floor was huge and dedicated to lots of experimentation and laboratory. I found myself getting desperate to locate this "whatever" it was of myself. I calmed myself down with the use of Q.D. (which allows us to let go of upsets in 10 seconds or less). We found a jar that contained something of me. The container had been taken from the main laboratory and looked like it was about to be disposed of since it was in a small unused portion of the lab...in kind of a small hallway. The jar contained a gelatinous, opal colored multi-layered matter of what I have no comprehension as yet. I downloaded the content's intelligence into my mind for future use. We then stashed the container into what looked like an unused cabinet, way in the back. We left there being aware that: 1)this is not a frightening or threatening operation, 2) they heard me and took action to pull me out from their current files and procedures (even though I did not do it with the strength, power and bravado I had thought was necessary--it still had an effect), 3) until we get a hit of what to do for our next step, we are on hold. While these abductions may not be being done with malevolence,what they are doing is unconscienable, because it is being done against our will. What would you do in a situation like this? We must be willing to do something. We are not victims. I strongly encourage you to empower your mind and to learn tools that support you in all realms of your consciousness. Conscious Lucid Dreaming is a super way to help you in this endeavor. To learn Conscious Lucid Dreaming contact Jim Dvorak at 1-505-541-0147 or email him at : bigeye@cybermesa.com Take charge of your life. Learn Conscious Lucid Dreaming.

WORKSHOPS: QUANTUM DYNAMICS is an incredibly practical, powerful tool. It helps us cope better with all of life. It creates instant resolution and success. It helps us champion our emotional thoughts and creations, which puts us in charge of our lives. Quantum Dynamics Process Group: First Sunday of each month, noon to 3 pm, $30. Hone your skill with this energy, receive big boosts in your process. Get higher with God-Goddess. Join us Sunday, April 19th, 2002. Spring Gala Sale!! Til March 31st. Spring clean your inner self! 2 hour Rebirths-$108 2 hour QD process or counseling-$108 2 day BEST intensive-$500 BEST updates the body's computer thru soft touch manipulation. Lets go of old programming on your behalf. Quickens all processes of the body. Heals all injuries on the physical, emotional, mental, spiritual levels of your being.

BREAST CANCER STAMP So, a subscriber sent me a tidbit about the US Postal Service putting out a stamp to financially support research for breast cancer....the response felt like it could go to a bigger audience...here it is:

Dear ---------, Blessings. Thank you for your continuous flow of jokes and tid bits. However, this one is a dizzy. There is no easy way to put this.

Dear --------, it's almost late morning...wake up. The research companies are not interested in finding a cure for breast cancer for two reasons...1) there is no more money for research once the cure is found, 2) the cure is already found and the powers that be ie. the corporations, do not, I repeat, do not want you or any other woman to find out. Look at it this way. If I have a hundred million dollars in budget, lab equipment, staff and buildings and some "yokel" comes along and says, "Red Clover heals cancer and I'll even prove it", then do you think I would miss a few hundred thousand to have that individual simply disappear??? AND wouldn't I and ABBOT, MERCK, LILLY, MONSANTO, and all the other research labs get together for the good of their whole to suppress the media? AND how long has this been going on? Since the fifties at least. OKAY, so where is the cure for breast cancer...? There are many places curing people of various cancers. Dr. Richard Schulze and his remarkable "Incurables Program", of Santa Monica California,...the Hoxie clinic in Tiajuana, Mexico(...known there as "Centro Biomedico") and others. Do these pioneers get research money? Of course not, they're healing people without side effects and without drugs. Hoxie by the way had twelve or more clinics across the nation in the early sixties and the government (purchased by the pharmaceutical corporations) had him run out...they work with hundreds of people daily in Tiajuana, Mexico. And Dr. Schulze is lovingly embraced by the Medical Doctors of Europe but not here. And here at A Next Step...light ctr. for emotional healing, we take it all on...to quote Dr. Schulze, "there are no incurable diseases. Period." There are of course, people that are outside the knowing and asleep and afraid... and that really believe they "HAVE TO" die!!! I could go on and on about this...but too often it falls on deaf ears. There is a cure for cancer..cancer is not a virus or any other outside assailant...it can be set up by outside carcinagens but ultimately it is our body asking us to wake up...wake up! Cancer and all diseases are our responsibility... By the way death is not wrong, it is however a choice. Okay, that's enough. Dr. Schulze---1-800-herbdoc (437-2362) call for his free info. Centro Biomedico---ask any one in California on the border with Tiajuana or email them at: bmed@bc.cablemas.com. And of course I can be reached at kelley@anextstep.org. Do some research, find out...read Kenny Ausubel's "When Healing Becomes A Crime: The Amazing Story of the Hoxie Cancer Clinics and the Return of Alternative Therapies" (Healing Arts Press 2000). We ARE being kept in the dark and it IS up to us to find the way out. PS: Dr Linus Pauling said that most cancer research was bogus

In Truth, Simplicity and Love, Dr. Kelley Elkins

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Our next World Peace Breath Meditation with BBl-VFF is Sunday, April 7, 2002 at 3 p.m. rocky mt. standard time. We meet the first Sunday of every month. We share and do the breath meditation with an intention for ourselves,humanity and Mother Earth between 4 and 4:30 p.m. Please do join us. It is an exquisitely simple way to give and receive support...and you are worthy of giving and receiving support.

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